The good, the bad, and the ugly.
I think there was a conspiracy to make me cry. It began with a family dinner over the weekend when I received beautiful, heartwarming messages in my cards from the kids. Matt wrote 2 cards each full of grace and hugely loving thoughts. Every time the waitress came to the table, tears were streaming down my face as I read another card from my angels.
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| Before the waterworks |
Today, I was overwhelmed with well wishes via phone, text and Facebook. The doorbell rang with a surprise delivery of flowers from my beautiful friends, Kristin and Sherri. Cue tears again. This was the moment I began to suspect a conspiracy. Seriously though, this was the best birthday ever and I am so grateful for my boys and my best friends. Through tough times, and times of joy, these are the people I’m so blessed to walk hand in hand with. What better way to celebrate a birthday?
As the first sentence read, there were some bad and ugly moments too though … my kiddos are both suffering anxiety and are way too tough on themselves. They are my miracles and I so wish they could see themselves through my eyes. Their pain breaks my heart.
Also, there was a pointedly and intentionally harmful comment made to me on Facebook yesterday. I try to stay uplifted and positive and not let it affect me, but in all honestly, it hurt. I am still hurt by others’ unkind words and actions. I take them to heart. Someone once told me that it takes 5 positive comments to neutralize 1 negative comment.
What do my 40’s hold? I honestly don’t know. I still haven’t figured it all out and what this next chapter of my life holds. I’m working on it. Working to focus on all the glorious moments and precious people/gifts in my life. I’m trying to not care what others think of me and what others say to try to harm me. It says more about them, right? That’s a lesson I haven’t learned in 40 years … one on which I really need to work.
At the end of today, what resonates most are the people who light up my life. They are such enormous gifts and I’m going to sleep with a smile on my face because of them.
Team Wilmore 